| alhamdullilah |
[May. 16th, 2012|12:50 am] |
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Grandma was diagnose with Ovarian Cancer last year Hari Raya.
Well today, marks the day she fought that sickness.
She ends her 6th chemotherapy already and I so so so much happy and relieved
to see grandma back to herself. She lost her hair which is so depressing for me
to witness it actually. And now i must say grandma is back on track!
hmm lets see, she's 98% cure now and heap she still have to go for regular check-ups
every 3-6 months.
Well, as for me, the doctor warned me just now to go for a breast/ovary checkup
when i'm in my late 20s the best! They suspected its a genetic kind of cancer
soooo me and my cousins will actually have to go for checkup to be safe.
It will cost us but you know its better to prevent it before it got worst and the payment
will be much more worst ain't it?
so ladies.... do go for breast/ovary checkup! |
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[May. 15th, 2012|01:05 pm] |
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Last night was the first awesome laugh I've ever had after a looooong time.
It's been so long since I laughed until I cried with the girls. See, I miss them so much.
Laughed hard that I thought to myself when was the last time I was this happy?
I've been drowning my mind with useless/negative thoughts. Im just destroying my own happiness.
I must say a lot of things were never the same...
I miss school so much. I miss ITE the most. The best-friends I've ever had.
The best classmates, yes!, I've ever had. Scrolling back my multiply, saw those pictures...
I miss ITE. I don't know how else can I explained those feelings. I miss them.
You see, it's nice that you've been remembered by few of your friends.
Lately I've been receiving a few unexpected messages from my friends.
It's nice to have someone who actually texted you even after a year we didn't meet,
after months we didn't met too. From those messages I felt that the person who have been
close with you all along will tend to forget you.....? I don't know how to arrange it in a sentence
cause it sound lot more better in my head. |
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| me |
[May. 14th, 2012|01:44 pm] |
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| fuck social network |
[May. 8th, 2012|11:12 pm] |
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anything got to do with social that i could think of
instagram/twitter just kills me knowing or seeing something i
don't wish to know...
it just kills me deep inside. |
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| goodbye |
[May. 4th, 2012|02:50 pm] |
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bye |
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| tweet that fuck |
[Apr. 29th, 2012|08:02 pm] |
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i've been reducing myself from using twitter cause everyone is
tweeting every single fuck they do. let's see WHO CARES.
i don't know whats the real definition of twitter.
tweeting every single thing is a problem there.
tweeting about your cats. i think its cute. well that i've yet to see/read.
tweeting and chat at the same time. wtf.
tweeting and retweeting people compliments about you. wtf.
tweeting about how sad you are 304587346534 times. wtf.
tweeting how your day goes, once. okay.
tweeting quotes..... WE GOT A FUCKING SHAKESPEARE HERE EVERYONE.
i got it quotes nice to read... if like almost everyone tweets the same quotes... wtf.
fcking tweeting every minute or secs GO GET A BLOG BITCH
too much of tweeting is a fucking problem man.
seriously. |
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| HATE THIS |
[Apr. 29th, 2012|07:33 pm] |
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I'm being too sad right now and I hate it. |
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| lovely.... |
[Apr. 29th, 2012|01:28 pm] |
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[Apr. 26th, 2012|05:37 pm] |
I'm sitting downstairs near my house with the evening sun directly on my face.
I've been staring at the space of Bukit Batok st. 34 for half and hour.
the people, old, young middle age. hearing the sound of birds chirping
drills from blocks away, hammering on the higher level of the block 337.
so many cars passed by and so do bikes. i wish i have a proper bicycle
so that i could ride around wherever i like.
then i came to realize its good to get away from phones and home.
i want to play hide and seek but who will with me.
i want to play catching but who will with me.
i feel like i should do something but i have no idea what. |
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| relationships. |
[Apr. 20th, 2012|06:02 pm] |
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i don't know weather it's really the right time for us worry about relationships.
being ignored, wanting to have good morning/night texts, date, feel the love of the opposite sex or same whatever,
night/day calls and anything else love people do. i mean, DO WE REALLY HAVE WORRY ABOUT THAT?
i know we all have feelings so does myself. we want to feel that. how does it feel to real fall in love, someones
there for us, love us back to, curiosity... we all want that feeling, who doesn't. even animals want to feel love.
do we have to be in a relationship just because all your friends have one. do you really wants it or
just the labeling of oh-i-have-a-gf/bf-too?
do i have to really worry about it now? i've seen a lot of love quotes here and there, people whining saying they
gonna end up forever alone... whining no people to text to, talk too whatever. it's like been thrown everywhere
like a piece of shit. suddenly everyone became shakespeare taking quotes out of nowhere thinking
it suites them. there's like millions billion zillion gazillion of other things to worry about but why relationship?
this is crap seriously. people should just take it slow... no rush... just wait. he or she will soon be in your life.
i'm like 20 and suddenly i realized relationship bf/gf is being the main ones in my mind. it's like being stolen
a spot in my brain saying "damn this relationship i must find one". reading tweets even the younger ones
wanting "desperately" for a bf/gf. i mean that shouldn't be the main case for us to worry about! no! wrong!
the younger ones, aren't you suppose to be thinking about schooling, having lots of fun with friends, fly kite,
eat, go the zoo, see sunsets, be carefree. us as young aldults, focus on continuing our studies, find a stable job,
travel, meet new people, holiday with families/old friends and that's when you slowly find, your, love, who knows.
there you go you have money of your own, be ready. go. not when you are still young, still under your parents guidance....
all you think is relationships.
for those who are already or going to be in a relationship, just be there when someone is ready to commit. take a risk.
make a mistake. learnt from it. of course when i say make a mistake doesn't mean you do it, you know. know your limits.
i know, i know, its fucking hard, its like a biggest decision in your life that you had a gun weather you had to shoot
yourself or you family, 2 choices only. but you know when you already know... someone is there, why not go for it?
when they are gone, that's when you realized its too late. i just thought that, these are the things that i shouldn't be worried about.
for those who are waiting, just wait for it. just wait and go with the flowwww~ |
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